"I'll ask the sun to shine away from you can cry"

Talked to my ex-girlfriend today, after nearly 2 years of absolutely no contact. Just like old times. Just like old times. It was so weird. Just comes to show that time flies by. Glad to know everything is fine now.

Had this conversation with my bestfriend the other day about relationships. I haven't talked to her about deep-ish(?) personal feelings and ish in a long time.

It wasn't me really venting. It was just me asking her all these questions about her relationship and in my head applied the situation to mine. It's just that I've just been having probably the stupidest thoughts lately, that things between us were starting to change. It was a very very dumb thought, I know, and I didn't deserve to think of it like that. It's just, it's just with you, I feel so different from the rest. I've never,.. I don't recall feeling the way I do about you with anyone. The kind of relationship we have,.. it's different, different than what I've experienced before. You're special--more special than people before. I don't understand why. I've never made a big deal about shit like this every before. What's going on? I'm so confused.

But it's so bittersweet. I seriously love what we have.

I know I complain a lot, make a big deal out of everything, and overreact. I'm obviously flawed, and for that I'm genuinely sorry.

I complain a lot, but deep down inside, I don't think I'd trade what we have for anything in the world. I'm content and absolutely happy.

I make a big deal out of everything because, well, I'm stupid and things just seem to be a big deal about me, but that's just a completely different problems about my perspective on our relationship; how I view you and how I view what we have together. I don't mean to make a big deal, it's just, shit I've said it a billion times already but YOU. ARE. SPECIAL. You, our relationship, and the fact that we're together, it's just a big deal to me because it all means so much to me. It really does.

I overreact, because, honestly I'm just a sensitive girly dude lol, and I care way too much. But i'd rather be someone who cares too much than someone who doens't give a shit. I'm sorry. I'll try my absolute hardest to not overreact.
Anything to make you happy.