Lately I've been catching myself zone out a lot. Sometimes school just makes me feel like a zombie, constantly studying and regurgitating information. It just makes me feel so blah

It sucks to feel like we're growing apart. It's a constant struggle to keep myself from feeling like I'm losing you more and more every single day. All I can do is just sit here and watch you drift away from me. And I hate it. I just feel like I mean less and less to you every day. Every single fucking day. And it's one of the most terrible feelings in the world. It just hurts.

It's always been about you. I've always been about you. Why does this always have to happen.
Long distance is hard man. When you need her the most, she won't be next to you. When something great happens, she can't be with you either. It just makes me so angry sometimes because I feel so powerless. It just feels like there is nothing I can do about this. It's fucking hard.

But I have always loved you. As much as I'd ever hate to admit it sometimes, I really do love you. No amount of anger will get in the way of loving you. I know shit gets really hard, but I've been here with you since day one.

But I'm always worried one day you're just going to completely stop loving me because of how far we are and how little we talk.