Sunday, August 7, 2016 , 3:13 AM

I'm back in that place I promised myself i'd never get back into. I can't believe it's starting to feel like that again. I'm hurting.

I've lost myself. Where was the guy who went on walks to the beach alone. The one who sat and meditated for so long, staring at the ocean being so introspective. The one who thought he could conquer the world. The one who felt so, genuinely, absolutely happy?
What happened to me. What happened to that version of me. Where is he?

I'm so lost. I promised myself i'd never ever go back to that dark place again. Yet here I am. Why am I not taking care of myself.

History repeats itself. Why am I back here.